TT17 - Look Up to Me Lyrics

Here's a little sum that I wanna get out of me
I don't really know if everyone is doubting me
"TT, We need some confidence", they wanna see a louder me
I dropped these wack raps, not a single soul was proud of me
My brother said I don't get bullied, but he know I did
They tell me that I'm 12, but my voice is like a kid
Everyone hated me, but I never said a word
Never snitch on anyone, but get called a turd
But I kept pushing through, look where I am today
But it really sucks to say that I got bullied every day
But I never showed emotions, I knew it would get better
One day I couldn't think straight, I wrote myself a letter
And in that letter, I called myself a king
The letter didn't rhyme, but it sorta had a ring
I put in there that I wanna meet Dwayne Wade
I look up to my legends, I was in the 8th grade
And then I went to high school, had a rough first year
Made a couple new friends, but that's nothing to cheer
But then I was a sophomore, that's where it was flyin
Made a group of my closest boys, no more cryin
I can trust them with my life, I don't say that very often
The homies I can trust are Ryan, Cris, Pat, and Austin
High school's been okay, the best years of my life
Crazy, right?

I can't trust too many people, can't trust em with my soul
You could tell if they fake if they not with you till they old
I used to feel so lonely, No one ever called my phone
So bad, that when someone did, I said "Leave me alone"

Leave me alone, I don't need your presence
I was 13 years old, but you treat me like I'm 7
I don't need sympathy, I don't need your pity
I just wish I could start a new life in a new city
They say "Enjoy your childhood, you'll never get it back"
Once I left middle school, I never looked back
I know why people hated me, no one ever said "What's up?" to me
Now those same people are the ones that look up to me
Why? Now? Why do you look up to me?
You were my bully in 7th, I feel like you corrupted me
Is it because I'm getting known? Can I call that jealousy?
You won't say it out loud, but that's what you're telling me
I respect all my supporters, I lie to the reporters
I'll live up to my hype and I'll give you all your orders
Someone get me a mic, someone get me a recorder
I almost quit everything, you pushed me to the border

I can't trust too many people, can't trust em with my soul
You could tell if they fake if they not with you till they old
I used to feel so lonely, No one ever called my phone
So bad, that when someone did, I said "Leave me alone"