TSAY - untitled 2 Lyrics

Yeah, sick of always falling apart Sick of everybody messing around with my heart
I get so frustrated, man, I don't even know where to start
So instead, I'll turn the pain into some modern art
Like, so what the hell is wrong with me

You always say it's nothing but my anxiety It's always saying that you're lying
If there's nothing wrong, then why the days don't leave
I'm sorry, but that's hard for me to believe
You're gonna have to be way more convincing

I don't know where my love is because I've never been shown it
Just tryna love myself, no I don't need anybody else
I wanna stay at home, yeah, I just wanna be alone
Don't know if that's really what I wanna do

But at least I'm safe from all of you
But you don't really care
You're just like that on the weather, yeah
Yeah, you don't really love me

You just love the attention that I'm giving
Don't you want a lover or a brother
You just want someone to walk all over
I'm not mad at you because it is not your fault

We've all got our wounds, so what's a little salt
Yeah, all my life, I've never been enough
For some reason, I still haven't given up
Even though no one clearly gives a f

You tell me different, but I'm about to call you bluff
Because even for you, I still don't make the cut
So is there really something wrong with me or what
I don't know what love is because I've never been shown it

Just tryna love myself, no I don't need anybody else
I wanna stay at home, yeah, I just wanna be alone
Don't know if that's really what I wanna do
But at least I'm safe from all of you

Ever since I was five years old, I understood the concept
Searched my whole life because of how bad I want and need that
But everybody just ends up stabbing me in the back
You say you're sorry and tell me about my worth

But if that's true, then why do I keep on getting hurt
I guess it's just what I deserve
You say that it gets better, but you're sounding like a liar
Not to me, but to yourself

I'm sick of all the lying and the cheating
And of the games that we've all been playing
I'm not crying, I'm not even really complaining
Just pointing out that it's really frustrating

I don't know what love is, but if this is what it is
Then I don't want it
Just tryna love myself, no I don't need anybody else
I wanna stay at home, yeah, I just wanna be all alone

Don't know if that's really what I wanna do
But at least I'm safe from all of you