Sittin' back in the dark, staring at my phone
I been sad, thinking way too much when I'm all alone
Half dead, I been feeling like deep down something's wrong
I've been alive too long
Every breath that I f*cking take
Bringing my closer to death
That I won't escape
Knowing that my time will come but I don't wanna wait
Would you rather have a heart break
Or rot away?
I don't know if Ima live for another ten years
Ain't nobody hearing me
I've been crying out for help
Now it's been a couple weeks, and you won't pick up your cellphone
I wanna run away
To another f*cking place
I can't make it another day
I just don't belong here
They made it pretty clear
It was just yesterday I was going insane
All these thoughts in my brain
I'm just saying, I didn't ask for my creation
And it's a little late for conversation
All the memories that I can't erase
That I can't escape
Bleeding till I'm in the f*cking grave
I'm suffocating under this heavy blanket of despair
It's peacefully deadly
I found myself staring off into the distance
I'm numb to the pain of my very existence
I'm breathing in vain and my demons persistent
Don't know where I'm going
Don't know how all this went so f*cked
For so long
In perpetual descent
I'm falling
This cycle is vicious