Introduction Video (MV)

This album is dedicated to my younger self
Who struggled with complications with his mental health
Who never felt brave enough to challenge his self-doubt
And wasn't associated with the popular crowd
Who could never articulate his opinions out loud
Was amazed, smokin' purple haze, blowin' hella clouds
But could never admit he f*cked up cos he was too proud
Looked around but saw nothin' but reasons to keep a frown

Aye
Aye
Yo

I'm an outcast smokin' up
I'm out back
Got loud packed, tokin' as I count cash
I've had enough
These cats fake as f*ck
That small talk's wack
The f*ck? I ain't about that
Gettin' the vibe I ain't a friend
I'm a means to end
The biggest reason for one to pretend
Don't try to get me to bend to yo will
To get the drugs finessed with no bills to invest in yo pills

And I don't know who to trust
Hearin' 5-0 and I ain't tryna get busted
Figured my homies had a plan but up and ran
I don't know where the f*ck I am
I took a minute
Barely got my vision cos my world spinnin'
This a situation that I never been in
I'm 14
I smoke green
And I f*cked up when I decided to trust dope fiends

I cannot get a grip
Think I'm in a whip
Such a f*ckin' trip
They keep on passin' shit to me to take another hit
I coulda sworn that I showed up with other people
Guess I'll find anotha way home
F*ck it, my eyes wanna stay closed
Thinkin' Ima stupid motherf*cka
But I'm high, so for now, guess I just gotta lay low

Fast forward
16
Lit every day, never sober
I'm in love with sex and drugs
Forget the sun
I f*ck two bitches and run over to the plugs house in the night time
Pickin' up MDMA
Plus I know I like my trippy visuals
I'm keepin' it lyrical, never tellin' white lies
Missin' every sign, I been sniffin' every white line, yeah

(Aye)
Takin' a puff
It ain't ever enough
And I don't give a f*ck if it's cut
Half my blood is made of drugs
Yo, this shit amazing
I start to forget everything but my cravings
Today
I feel a little more empty
I never gave a f*ck about a Benz or a Bentley
But now the drugs and my friends pull in opposite directions
And frankly the highs feel better than affection

My body's rottin' but don't feel no f*ckin' pain
Said f*ck this life
F*ck everyone
F*ck everything
I never f*ckin' asked to be here anyway
Nothing will change
Don't want to see another day

My body's rottin' but don't feel no f*ckin' pain
Said f*ck this life
F*ck everyone
F*ck everything
I never f*ckin' asked to be here anyway
Nothing will change
Don't want to see another day

(Aye)
My body's rottin' but don't feel no f*ckin' pain
Said f*ck this life
F*ck everyone
F*ck everything
I never f*ckin' asked to be here anyway
Nothing will change
Don't want to see another day