trstn. - Forgiveness Lyrics

Yeah, it's almost been a year but girl, I still miss you
I wish that I could still f*ckin' kiss you
After we split, I didn't know how to feel
So I kept telling myself that it wasn't real
But it is, so why's your name still f*ckin' stuck in my head?
I lie in bed and I ponder on the things that I said
I wonder if sometimes you think about me when you're in bed
I wonder if sometimes you'd just prefer if I was dead
Probably not, but am I crazy for thinkin' maybe you do?
I wouldn't blame you girl, f*ck I wish I was dead too
What I did to you I swear it was just an honest mistake
You think that I don't regret it? It still haunts me to this day
I gave you all of my love, and you just threw it away
You f*ckin' told me that you'd love me till the very last day
But you lied, and to be honest I can't say I'm surprised
I saw it coming soon as that last teardrop fell from your eyes
Now I'm awake every night as I talk to god and I pray
That maybe one day you'll come back to me and I'll be okay
But that won't happen, will it? I guess I'll just have to move on
Just had to let you know that girl I'm f*ckin' lost with you gone
Whoa-oh
When I'm feelin' all alone
I wish I could hit up your phone
But I already know that you won't reply
I know what I did was wrong
So I'm apologizin' in this song
All I ask is that you please forgive me
So now I'm cryin' while I'm sittin' here and writin' this song
Thinkin' about the shit I did and how it all went wrong
I was an idiot, I should've never played along
I should've blocked her the second she treated me like a pawn
But like I said, I was an idiot, I'm sorry okay?
You know how many times I've wished I could go back to that day?
I f*ckin' tried to forget you, but girl, it just doesn't work
Even re-dating's an issue, 'cause I'm just so f*ckin' hurt
You see, the problem is when I'm with them, I'm thinkin' of you
Our late-night convo's on the days that we'd stay up past two
The way you kissed me and looked at me with those eyes so blue
How can I possibly forget, when it's always runnin' through
My f*ckin' brain and I'm sorry for gettin' carried away
Just never thought that we would end like that it's crazy, but hey
You ever need someone to talk to my door's open, okay?
Said I'd be there for you, I meant it, that's a promise, okay?
Now that it's over, I think I've said all I needed to say
I really miss you and I'm sorry that shit ended this way
But as I'm stuck here tryna find a way to finish this song
I guess I'll end it with I'll love you till the day that I'm gone
Whoa-oh
When I'm feelin' all alone
I wish I could hit up your phone
But I already know that you won't reply
I know what I did was wrong
So I'm apologizin' in this song
All I ask is that you please forgive me