Tripod - Emotions at War Lyrics

I've been taking meds
Just to make me feel okay
And I f*cking hate it
Cuz its messing with my brain
Gotta pop a few
Just to make me go to sleep
If I don't have it
Then I sit here counting sheep
Got a roof over my head
Food on the table
But I still want to be dead
Cuz my life is so unstable
They say I gotta perfect life
But how come I can't see it

Most f*cken days these bad thoughts
Keep my brain in transit
I've been digging through my brain
Looking for a good thought
I aint find nothing yet
This shit has got me lost
Wake up every morning
With some aching in my heart
I've learned to hide the pain
So no one sees me fall apart
My emotions are at war
It's impossible to ignore
To keep myself alive
Is a mother f*cken chore
My emotions are at war
I cant handle it no more
It's like they took my heart
And they slammed it in the door
I've been seeing shit
That aint f*cken there
If this dont stop
Ima be gone that I f*cken swear
Look into the mirror
See a f*cken demon
This the type of shit

That's been keeping me from sleeping
I dont f*cken get it
Why does this shit happen
Its like im being hunted
But sadness is the bullet
My heart f*cken burns
When bad thoughts come to mind
From there it gets worse
As my thoughts get outlined
I've been droppin people
Cuz they ain't no good for me
All I gotta say is
Choose your homies carefully
Fake people dont surprise me
Loyal people do
If you ride with me
Then you better come through
My emotions are at war
It's impossible to ignore
To keep myself alive
Is a mother f*cken chore
My emotions are at war
I cant handle it no more
It's like they took my heart
And they slammed it in the door