A pessimist or a realist
Somewhere in between I just know that im a witness
To the bottom, i done seen a drought
Seen my man bleedin' out
Seen my momma shed tears, times when we aint have a house
Sleepin' on my girl couch
Thinkin' of a master plan
Tryna get us out the jam
I swear I felt like half a man
Some shit I'll never understand
Voices saying let it go
Dont let the internet speed you up, take it slow
I was that aint shit nigga a few times
Robbed niggas, sold work, committed a few crimes
Been through a lot, so I got more than a few rhymes
Survival of the fittest nigga only a few shine, yeah
Cant do the rushin
No time to be stumblin, fumblin
Let a nigga pick it up and run the length mane thats one hunnit
I gotta stay 10 toes
See the highs and block the lows
Take a blow to give a blow sometimes thats how life goes
I aint been pleased with myself
Maybe cause im out here pleasing everybody else
Or maybe im just making real f*cked up choices
I dont know, just keep hearing all these voices coming thru my head, ah
And i get tired of not having peace of mind when im tryna go to bed, yeah
But ima keep pushing on cause I know that its better days ahead
Gave bro the password to my laptop
Never know, I might not get to see my next drop
He gotta organize that, make sure I get this pain out
Show em what that rain bout when things fly south
I used to cry at night, get fried at night
Look at the sky at night, im thankful I survived them nights
Remember starring down a barrel I was 10 years old
Skipped out on the next foams, went and copped me some chrome
I keep it close by, even when im at home
I may maneuver by myself but i am never alone, mane
Shit im in college with it on my hip
Its f*cked up im pistol packing while on scholarship
Just thinkin, mane what if i slip
Get caught with this grip
You would call that a trick
F*ck it you take risks when you seen a lot of shit
Praying that a day a come where i aint got to live like this for real
I aint been pleased with myself
Maybe cause im out here pleasing everybody else
Or maybe im just making real f*cked up choices
I dont know, just keep hearing all these voices coming thru my head, ah
And I get tired of not having peace of mind when im tryna go to bed, yeah
But ima keep pushing on cause I know that its better days ahead