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How do you tell a woman, that her boyfriend is an alcoholic
And how do you convince her that he manages it nicely (and nightly)
Well, people are people and we all have our problems
And I'm afraid my problems are becoming her problems
And I'm afraid of living alone
But I'm terrified that I'm healthier alone
I never meant to hurt no one
So I'll keep singing things that I write in these songs
It's the choice between being happy and being honest
Focus on shit just to try and get past her
Decisions I've made, made your heart beat faster
I want you here but forever is a long time
Every day I get a little bit stronger
'Cause it's another day we lasted we went a little bit longer
But it's so scary to think that another good day might equal a deeper hole
And I am not honest but I'll always keep a promise
And I promise that I lie to myself more than you
That's why I never say that I love you
Because it's always hard to say if I love you
I never meant to hurt your feelings
So I'll be holding you tight but at arm's length
It's the choice I make between your happiness and clarity
Focus on me so I can be better
Gave up, didn't care, I didn't even make an effort
I want you here but forever might kill me
This is f*cking with my head, and I'm drowning in an empty bed
Well, I am facing the fact that I might always be alone
You might be wasting time with this heart of mine
'Cause I can't make up my worried mind
How can I love you when I never knew myself at all