Town Destroyer - Transient Lyrics

I've been thinking of leaving to the place you've gone
I'm sitting here waiting for you to return my call
Even though I know that you're not there
You left it all behind and swallowing acceptance
Is the hardest part when you never get to say goodbye
I hope to find myself in better health but for now
I'm overcome with concern because you constantly haunt me
Still, I love to see you
The sunset is my horizon again
And I'm searching for some sort of repentance from my sorrows
I never saw the potential that you did
My denial would show every single time you said
That I could do what I put my mind to
I guess I'll show just how selfish I can be
With no focus on the needs of anyone but me
I'll take the scenic route home
Cold and alone, I am seeking the sun
Keep it hidden away as the tides start to rise in efforts of keeping me from you
You were never alone, trust me I've been there
Those eyes that once held such warmth have grown bitter with the autumn wind
I've been thinking of leaving to the place you've gone
Father lend me your strength
Mother give me your pain in the hopes that you never feel this way again
Trying to say your name always stops my lungs from breathing
Your presence has become past tense
Now's the time for the hardest questions
Life, love, and loss was never meant to be easy
Still, I'm just dragging my feet
You said you would die for me but I chose to live for you
Now your ghost is all I see
Not surviving, just existing
This is my never ending attempt to save you
I won't give up
I'm not surviving, I'm just existing in this hell
I've been thinking of leaving to the place you've gone