Town Destroyer - Dismantle Lyrics

So here I am again
Blank paper to pen, but in the end I'll rip the pages out
Because lately I have found comfort in giving up
It feels like relief after being torn between two separate entities
There's no one left to stitch the seams of living dreams left inside of me
To the ones I told I would never break
I'm sorry, I broke

I broke every promise that I ever made
So please don't look to me for strength
I can't even hold my own head up
And if these past years have taught us anything
It's that I'll be gone in the morning and just as the seasons fade, so will you

I hear you calling my name
Still I push you away
Abandonment was always my favorite game
The soil was always my home so bury me and walk away from everything you thought you knew
Those half smiles I could always see through
I'll never forget the statement you made true
That this was all temporary anyways
The place you love to escape was witnessed on the back of your eyelids
So rest your eyes on the skies as the sun sets because when you wake I'll be gone

Were these dreams ever my own?
Maybe it's just like my father said, I'm just stuck in the wrong perspective
I've got to dismantle my pride and sever my ties from the demons
That would always attempt to reside in my mind
You were always inside of my head
I hear you calling my name

My return holds nothing but a shallow man waiting for someone's hand to pull me out of this pit
But I've tried my hardest to refuse the negative in every word that you say
Still the world, it was determined to consumed me

The soil was always my home so bury me
And walk away from everything you thought you knew
And those half smiles I could always see through
I'll never forget the statement you made true
You reminded me of how naïve I can be
The place you loved to escape was witnessed on the back of your eyelids
So rest your eyes on the skies as the sun sets
When you wake up I'll be gone

I recall my youth, the kind that felt forever until it ended with never again
They called me the runaway kid, the kind that never owned a spine
Prioritizing backwards, I was caught up in the times and took everything for granted

We are born alone and die alone
Isn't that what's said?
Its all I'll ever know
I never claimed to be an optimist
I never claimed to bring you happiness
I was lost in uncertainty, caught in the void of subconscious apathy

So now can you see everything that I couldn't express
Now can you feel everything that I couldn't express
I was empty