Canvas of Doubt Video (MV)

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Alone in my room walls closing in
Thoughts spinning 'round can't find where to begin
Every face a canvas painted with doubt
Scared to let them close what if they find out?
What if they use me like a stepping stone
What if I'm just a pawn in their game alone
Afraid to trust afraid to confide
In this world of deception where truth hides
Pushing everyone away just to keep them near
Living in fear of what they'll find or hear
But it's not rejection it's my choice to be alone
In this canvas of doubt I find my own
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I crave connection yet fear the pain
Of being misunderstood judged in disdain
What if they see what I can't reveal
And turn away leaving scars that won't heal
It's easier to push than to let them stay
To guard my heart keep the pain at bay
But in this solitude I find my peace
A solitary refuge where doubts can cease
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Pushing everyone away just to keep them near
Living in fear of what they'll find or hear
But it's not rejection it's my choice to be alone
In this canvas of doubt I find my own
Every interaction a battle within
A struggle between longing and the fear of sin
But in the silence I find my release
In the solitude I find my peace
Pushing everyone away just to keep them near
Living in fear of what they'll find or hear
But it's not rejection it's my choice to be alone
In this canvas of doubt I find my own
Alone in my thoughts but not in despair
For in this solitude I find my solace rare
In the canvas of doubt I paint my truth
A solitary masterpiece in the silence of my youth