Tosch - Victim (feat. D1) Lyrics

Without our health we cannot fully experience life as it was intended
But here's the thing
Addiction and disease are more prevalent than ever before
It is an obvious reality
That our bodies were not designed to thrive on this planet
Please don't waste your time arguing
Taking responsibility for my circumstances is empowering
But only if I drown out the actual source of my problems
It's much easier to blame others for what's wrong in my life
Reciting poetry like it's woe is me, repetition like a rosary
Dark clouds floating overhead I stay hoping nobody's exposing me
Filled with the worst of intentions, spent on the best of my days
Soon I'll be old and decrepit, to be honest I'm not even phased
This is really all I've ever known, wishing I could just be left alone
I'm only here to be a stepping stone, that's loud and clear like a megaphone
With a voice box on the chopping block and a backbone made of Styrofoam
No one left for me to call upon, is it a flatline or a dial tone?
What have I done to deserve this, someone help me understand
Weakening grip on my sanity, guess you could say it's getting out of hand
The evidence is indisputable, yet they label me delusional
Unfair and unsuitable although I know the feeling isn't mutual
Poor me, poor me, singing out from the bottom of the well
Drip drop, drip drop, rainfall drowning out my cry for help
I put myself in this hole, shh, no one ever has to know
Preying on anyone willing to listen to all the fiction in my throat
Can anybody hear me, I'm in need of being saved
Yeah, I've been down for a long time and I'll die here at this rate
I'm not reaching for your hands, maybe you can lend and ear
I'm not looking for a way out, I'm only in it for the tears
I am the victim, come and meet me in the shade
I want some company, I'll bring you with me to the grave
No part of me is whole, a pity party for the soul
Relegated to the back seat, I'm not the one in control
Yeah, I am the victim
I got these people feeding out the palm of my hand
My words are deceiving and soon they'll be heeding my every demand
It wasn't the plan, but this is how it has to be
'Cause I am what I am, just a victim who's following script in this tragedy
I'm a master at passive aggressive actions
I'm a slave to the madness and always have been
I've been harboring hatred you can't imagine
Got me blaming my neighbors for all this baggage
I'm a magnet attracting what hasn't happened and I'll never be happy with what I have
I continue to practice it into habit so I keep manufacturing what I lack
I have nothing but anger inside of me, and I give it everything that it needs
I enjoy adding fuel to the fire and watching it melt away all of my enemies
I've accepted my place in this underworld, it's a hellish defeat
And maybe I'm just being selfish but lately I relish the heat
Tried to tell you that I'm so far gone I may never see the light of day again
Once you're swallowed by the darkness it's hard not to wonder if it ever ends
Loneliness is in the air, no more energy to spare
Even if I wanted out I would doubt I could find a single friend to care
Still I'm yelling
Can anybody hear me, I'm in need of being saved
Yeah, I've been down for a long time and I'll die here at this rate
I'm not reaching for your hands, maybe you can lend and ear
I'm not looking for a way out, I'm only in it for the tears
I am the victim, come and meet me in the shade
I want some company, I'll bring you with me to the grave
No part of me is whole, a pity party for the soul
Relegated to the back seat, I'm not the one in control
Yeah, I am the victim
And the symptoms grip my soul
I am the victim
This prison is my home
I am the victim
It's the only thing I know
I am the victim
Wish I could get control
I am the victim
And I just can't let go
I am the victim
Driving down this twisted road
I am the victim
System overload
I am the victim
I pray the wisdom flows
I am the victim
I promise I'll listen
Don't want to be the victim
I promise I'll listen