I can't remember the last time I saw you
A passing glance quick wave and smile
See you and I, we got a lot of catching up to do
And well I was kind of hoping you could stay a while
Because a lot has changed since we last spoke
And honestly I wouldn't know where to begin
I just feel like I have no one else to tell it to
And Lord knows I could use another friend
We were something else, a couple ignorant kids
And legally we were minors still dreaming about the bigs
We never spent as much as a second on second guessing
I found that we were obsessed with the question of can I live?
We balled it up in a fist 'cause all we did is resist
And I recall that we were constantly giving my parents fits
There was a point in time where they couldn't tell me a thing
I was a young prince but I acted like I was king
And I'm just happy we're laughing about it now
'Cause they were nothing less than accepting with you around
And they had heard about you but never wanted to judge
'Cause they could tell I thought you were special that was enough
You followed me to college we promised to make it last
And I thought about you constantly in the back of the class
We were totally different but we were one in the same
And we met some other couples who had us upping our game
Everybody loved it when I would bring you around
'Cause when you were talking nobody bothered to make a sound
And I was really proud of the way that you made me feel
'Cause I knew you'd go to battle for me like a Navy SEAL
And people always told us how good that we were together
And no one had to say it but we were thinking forever
We had a great run and we were having some fun
But there came a point in life where you weren't my number one
And I wanted to bite my tongue and pretend that it would be fine
But I was honest and I told you I couldn't give you my time
And thinking back I might have had a million different reasons
But the only one that mattered was that I just quit believing
See not a lot changed at first
But slowly over time everything seemed rehearsed
Thought maybe I could overlook it if I came to terms
But that was not the type of painting that my frame deserved
Before I knew it the seconds turned into hours and hours turned into days
That I'd been hiding inside of this undesirable place
When others tried to inquire on whether we got together
I'd tell 'em still on occasion while lying straight to their face
And that's when I decided that this was bigger than me
I wasn't inspired I was who I was figured to be
I had succumb to ego, totally unaware
Physically I was present but mentally wasn't there
So I'm regaining my balance and taking it slow
And I appreciate you letting me grow
'Cause what you gave me there's no way to measure
Even when I feel I'm alone I know better
So here I sit alone in my room
The light of the moon enlightens the conversation I've been writing with you
Reciting a few of the topics, hearing the clock tick tock
Thinking to myself like damn I still got it
Current
It would be wise to quit believing
That we are inherently separate from one another
It can no longer be denied
Every day we become more and more disconnected from our roots
But I know better
Our lives are far more intertwined than we could begin to imagine
This project is a creation of the universal mind
I refuse to accept that
The current is not alive within us all
With Gratitude
Tosch