Torturous Inception - Disciple in Bereavement Lyrics

This isolation has left me with ice in my chest
I can't live nor die
Dragging on and on, wishing I was carrion
Theft of what I once was, extinction of reason
Sleep deprived
Poisonous air escapes from my decomposing mouth
Wasting away of my own decree, coward Hiding from humanity
Outside I shield my eyes from life,
For behind them lies the origin of reprise
Mutilate myself, embrace the filth
Wallowing in garbage, festering emotions and disgrace
Ingestion of the pleasures, quick fixes for the pain
The surging in my infected head eradicates the sane
Convulsing on the floor
Why won't this f*cking end
Tell me what will stop this headfirst plunge into oblivion
I've been cold to the touch of others and of my own
My head became a shell, release me from this hell
Despising every moment, wretched bile burns
Overheating, sweat is dripping as my stomach turns
Ferocious this beast, clawing at my ribs
Is this my fate or a gift
Dragging on and on, dead life with no end, plague is what I am
Loneliness is not a friend
Dragging, forever damned
Dragging on and on, dead life with no end
Plague it what I am, loneliness is not a friend, dragging on and on, dead life with no end
Flies upon my eyes
View fixed on nothing
Anything but this
Why can't I die
Why can't I die
Dragging on and on, dead life with no end
Plague its what I am
Loneliness is not a friend
Dragging on and on, dead like with no end
Plague is what I am, forever damned
I shut my mouth and die inside
This is my life, this is my death
Another f*cking waste of breath
I refuse to take another step
Shut my mouth and close my eyes
Put on my false disguise
No progress, no mind space for rent
I've become another disciple in bereavement