State of Mind (Radio Edit) Video (MV)

I never open up like this to anybody
Try to keep the pain within but its unbearable
I love my momma more then anything
But shit you cannot fathom
All the trauma that I'm going through when I put up a front
I want a peace of mind
I wanna live a life without the fear of dealing with a drunk
Whos
And I aint even scratch the list
Its really hard for me to say this

As I'm writing on this song
I hear her banging on the walls
Banging on the glass
Trynna get attention
I don't know how I'm reseliant to all the noise
Growing up to screaming did a number on her voice
Always blaming everything on me
When all I ever did was try to be the best of me
At the age of 9
Seeing all the
Dealing with the drinking
While I'm hiding trying to cope
I don't know if I can handle anymore
Doing everything I can to grow and move up out the house
Praying up to god
Wanna make it out
Why the am I the one whos gotta pick up all the peices
Every single night alone
I wish I grew up in another home
I wanna fly away
Live another day
I got a son to raise
Never being led astray
Growing up without a father
Dealing with a trauma
Havving zero guidance
Getting into trouble
Giving in to violence
Me up
Man I don't wanna live like that
I wanna set a good example for the youth
Be the father you can come to after school
Having dinner with the fam
Making memories and being proud about your past
I got alot to learn
And I am just beginning
Doing everything I can to make a living
Learning from my past
Never gonna live like that
Ima be the dad that I aint never had