Gospel Video (MV)

Its been a rough bringing
But I went through what I had to so I could become the man I am
Family trauma mixed in heartbreak, drug aroma
How bout that one time that I tried inducing on a coma
Its like a lesson learned
Every time I'm going through the hardships of my lives I end up feeling cold as ice
Deep inside its like the soul just put out all the light
Took my last breath pleading but its all in spite
No matter how I try to live I'm always frowned upon
I try to do the right thing but its always wrong
But still I'm holding on
Trynna find my way
I keep on moving through the storm
But now Im losing hope
Feeling all alone
Wishing for support
But now its getting harder since I lost my sense of trust
Now I'm feeling lost
No longer holding on
Waiting for the end to come so I see it all
Gone
I Gave in to the negativity
Crazy how I let it get the best of me
Guess you can call it anxiety
All just depriving me
Of how happy I could of been
Or that's the way it seems
I think I kinda like the negativity I have
Let me explain a little further so you can comprehend
It kinda gives me a reason to be relevant to my friends again
And get them to cherish me with events I'm dealing with
And it f*cks me up cause I don't wanna be like that
I wanna be in control of all the thoughts that I have
But I
Keep making all these excuses
All just holding me back from the progress I coulda made
Thinking that its fate
But now I see the logic on the other side
Realizing that the problem was my sudden pride
Now I'm
Working on the ego
Moving forward I go
Heading to the road of positivity
No matter how I try to live I'm always frowned upon
Trying to learn the right thing but I'm kinda wrong
But still I'm holding on
Slowly find my way
I keep on moving through the storm
Slowly gaining hope
Feeling kinda grown
Supporting on my own
But now its getting harder since I lost the sense of I
Now I'm feeling lost
No longer holding on
Waiting for the end to come so I see it gone
Man
F*ck that negativity
Positivity in my bones
Family friends and a girl at home
Got it all locked down
Able to help my mamma
Able to help the fam
I never had this type of income
Now it all just flowing in
Want to help the homeless
Want to help charity
Start a new foundation
The Wish I Could foundation
Know Ill make a difference
Know Ill help the fight
Time to get to work
We starting off tonight
Its been a rough bringing
But I went through what I had to so I could become the man I am
Family trauma mixed in heartbreak, negativity
How bout that one time I blamed it on anxiety
Its like a lesson learned
Every time I'm going through the hardships of my life I end up feeling bold and hype
Deep inside its like the soul ignited all the light
Took a deep breath fighting cause I know its right
No matter how I try to live I'm always happy now
Finally learned the right thing no longer ever wrong
Now I'm holding on
Finally found my way
I keep on moving through the storm
Always high on hope
Feeling fully grown
Supporting on my own
No longer hard since I have found myself
No longer feeling lost
Now holding on
Waiting for the end to come so I can finally soar