I loved the idea of us
I waited for months to hear you in real
It changed like the hours
You changed on your own
It wasn't the same to be your friend
But I'll wonder
How did we keep this secret?
And I'll wonder
How did we be before?
One day it hurts
The change that was made in just September
We are
For a moment
Trapped in illusion, I believed in my fantasy
Trapped in the season
All-nighters to write to you
I watched the sunrise and I waited
For a message to say, "come and be with me"
I would've made the change
I would've spent the change to run
If I had gone
Would there be... weak... have lasted?
If I had gone
Fear would be here
F***ing hungry
End this song
Eat a salad
Be my own
Goodbye