Surrounding myself with all of these people
But only one that I want and I can't even see her
Keep at Arms length cuz I don't wanna lose you
Yea Hating myself for all of these feelings
Cuz imma f*ck it up with my head always realing
In the corner to myself always keeping
I swear I'm afraid that's why I'm always angry
Scared of myself and my past that I'm hiding
And if I was you I would shoot me in the head yea I'm writing
Please hold a gun to my head my arms are covered in red
Holding on by a thread
Holding a Scissors to that rope
Oh
Now I'm dead
Now I can rest
Scars on my wrist
Wake up from this dream
Look at what I've done
I failed my escape
I live on the run
Fighting my scars and I can't even see
Thru the fire In my vision I can't get no peace
Felt like this ever since I was young
From my neck and the rope, I've hung
F*ck all sympathy my phone has never rung
Yea I'm killing the man In the mirror
But he makes me these beats
Makes me rise from defeat
Maybe I should hang on just a little bit more
More?
Lost in this war?
Same as before?
Life is a loop
Jumping thru hoops
How are we not all on the roof
We were made to create
Its never too late
Dont get killed by fate
Cuz thats all fake
We drown in a lake
Cuz we are all crying out
I can't find a way out of this hell in my head
You won't know it until I am dead
Every night I will fight with myself
But I'll ignore it until I am dead
Sincerely TK and the war in his head
Why can't I why can't i,
Escape all these thoughts in my head
Why can't I why can't I
Leave this war behind
Why do you why do you
Always want me to be dead
My life it feels like it's hanging by a thread
Some days i get a little bit insecure
Those days i wish that i could find a cure
In my head head all i see is gore
Im spazzing out here on the floor
Success has been knocking at my door
Get away from me please
(Yea im hanging on by a thread)
Before you trash and all you do is leave
(A thread that's more like a noose)
All i see are these hellish vultures
(You cut me out yea you cut me loose)
Trapped in a culture
Feeling so used
The pain it Protrudes
The face of the muse
Imma use it
I am my own damn hell
Hurt so deep that I fell
A bottomless well
My body's a shell
Get away from me please all you dirty little theives
Before you trash and all you do is leave
Why cant i even seem to escape my filthy past
Im last
You laugh
Imma stay stay on this path
And imma rap with a wrath
Of the man in my head
As i lay in bed
All i see are these hellish vultures
Trapped in a culture
I know that we're smarter
But we cant go any farther
Why can't I why can't i,
Escape all these thoughts in my head
Why can't I why can't I
Leave this war behind
Why do you why do you
Always want me to be dead
My life it feels like it's hanging by a thread