TJ Foster - I Don't Know Lyrics

Oh I wanted so bad to write something upbeat
There must be an optimist buried between these old bones
I can count on one hand the times I've felt secure
I remember a time when my heart was still pure, now it's stone

Should I talk to somebody or stay in my head?
Find a distraction or just go to bed?
I don't know, I don't know

I don't think you can help me but maybe you can
I need more than a pep talk, more than a hand
I don't know, I don't know

I wish I could articulate all of this pain
But it comes out like static, a short in the wires of my brain
I'm an old antique dresser without any drawers
I'd search for some light but I'm comfortable under the floor

Should I talk to somebody or stay in my head?
Find a distraction or just go to bed?
I don't know, I don't know

Am I a sucker for sadness or is it one for me?
Am I losing my grip on some reality?
I don't know, I don't know