Life Video (MV)

I be lost in my thoughts for a while now
I be tryna switch it up for a while now
I just feel I really need to get it off my chest
I just feel I need the help so help me get up off this ledge

My mind hurting like I'm so lost
Looking at shit like what's the cause
Everything you do like what's the cost
Always say sorry when I know it's my fault

Felt the pain cause you live and learn
Feel the heat but never let it burn
Flipping every table cause tables turn
Looking at god like when is it my turn

People never like people who stand out
That's why I'm the black sheep in my own house
But lock myself in never let shit out
I live for the day I can buy out the doubt

I forgive but I don't forget
Wrong me twice and I'll de damned
Keep shit in like I don't hit send
If I don't hit send then I can't regret

I be lost in my thoughts for a while now
I be tryna switch it up for a while now
I just feel I really need to get it off my chest
I just feel I need the help so help me get up off this ledge

Lay it on the line like it's a bet
Surrounded by snakes used to be my friends
Now the only one I got is a paper and pen
But that's what it is like I don't regret

I'm tryna be the man that I know I can be
I wanna be the man that my kids can see
When they look at me
They proud of me
I want them to say daddy chased his dreams

Despite the odds and despite the wait
Despite the comments and despite the hate
I chase my dream like it's not a dream
But I chase my dream like it's my fate

Because I hide it doesn't mean I don't feel it
My heart got scars pretend I got no feelings
I want the love but it's hard to trust
If I'm being honest my past f*cked me up

Always doing shit just to hide the pain
Most people in this world really feel the same
Always wear a mask always say I'm okay
Looking at this world like damn it's so strange

Used to compromise my character
Told myself not anymore
I'm tired of it all don't give a f*ck
If you don't like me then there's the door

Walk away that's what they always do
No one really cares no one fights for you
They hate that I say it but its the truth
If I ever meet you ask me for proof

They say that they care
But they actually don't
They do all the things
They told you they won't
Out of all of their secrets
How many you know

I be lost in my thoughts for a while now
I be tryna switch it up for a while now
I just feel I really need to get it off my chest
I just feel I need the help so help me get up off this ledge

Somedays I feel so great
Other days I don't
Somedays I think I will
Other days I won't

They ask me why I rap
I say that I use to cope
Cause I cant hold a smile
If I cant let it go
And honestly no one knows
Cause no one really asks
And thats okay cause I'm okay
I keep it real
You wear a mask

I always deal with the stress
Motherf*cker My life a mess
I don't got time to rest
But On myself I bet

I just want something real
I don't want it based on sex
I don't got time to waste
I don't wanna have to impress

I send a text
Just someone help
But they don't care
I can tell
Tweet all my feelings
Hoping someone care
They leave a like
Claim they unaware
When they finally ask I got nothing to say
Cause when they ask it's just way to late

Because even you
Can hear this song
Still never ask
But you claim you care
Never reaching out
Till it's too late
Then you wish you had

Then you wish you had