Th3rdshift - Your Love Lyrics

It wasn't likely id meet you but I did
With the soul of an old man heart of a little kid
I got a funny way of seeing things and you would laugh with me
I got struck by you, now what'd I do when that hit me
I just fell in deeper yeah this hole caving in
All my boys like yo there's no saving him
I need that fire to burn to learn a lesson
On a higher quest now I'm supplying you with that message
Took up too much time felt possessive
You insured me that your mind was open you were progressive
But I don't feel like we flowing
I just feel like we going nowhere and both of us can't heal in this moment
So let's be real if we going our separate ways
For me this shit was real guess for you it was just a phase
Now many days I sit and ponder that
Hoping that I get to say this to you if you ever wander back

My father never mattered to me
I'm lying I'm bothered by the way I never mattered to him
How could he not be there for me man
I'm still a little boy my heart needs therapy and
Everybody thinks I'm not sincerely
Still dealing with this why you think I love so terribly
That man who was supposed to mold me
Let my mom do the job now what could she show me
Well she did everything that she had to
And she never was around because of you that's what sad dude
You planted a seed to leave it and grow
And now half of me is you, you didn't need me to know
Did you ever think of me and regret that
Or wonder how much years in me you set back
There was a time I couldn't sleep like jet lag
And now I'm breaking through it so easy like a wet bag



See that's a prison I was living in when you bailed on me
You said I tested you but f*ck that shit you failed on me
It shouldn't be this hard to be so close
I know we grown folks
I'm trying to laugh but you don't need those jokes
Well weed gon' smoke yeah I'm lighting it up with your memory
Now I understand how friends become a new enemy
I tend to be a loner these days and that's a shame
And even if it's written bout' you I won't say your name
I'm realizing that this aint love
And it just aint real and I just feel so misplayed but
I'll get straight up back on my feet and I'm still walking
All that shit you said to me bet you wish I was still talking
But nope around here all communication cut-off
The part in my brain that thinks about you getting shut-off
We was one-off the run-off is over now
We drunk off the lust but had to come-off we sober now


I ain't gonna live with this shit no more
It's on me to be what I be
But it's time that I be selfish for once
I finally did something for me