T.F.M. - Adjacent Lyrics

I am alien to myself
I have the feeling of not being myself
I look in the mirror and I am someone different
There is no feeling that fills this emptiness
I feel nothing
There is no love or pleasure
There is nothing that makes me feel
Death visited me three times
I was wandering in the dark
Not even that made me feel
I never turned back
I didn't do it before, I won't do it now
Even if I lose the battle
I won't look back
There is no reason to continue
There is no reason to give up
There is no reason to live
There is no reason to die
I feel a strange ecstasy
Under the rain that wets my body
The heat that lets me feel
It's as if it gives me a reason
Maybe I'm a damned
Maybe it's my prison
I was born in war
There is no rifle that makes me fear
I never turned back
I didn't do it before, I didn't do it now
I will do it now?
I won't look back
There's no reason to keep going
There's no reason to give up
There's no reason to live
There's no reason to die
I never turned back
I didn't do it before, I didn't do it now
I will do it now?
I won't look back
There's no reason to keep going
There's no reason to give up
There's no reason to live
There's no reason to die
I never turned back
I didn't do it before, I won't do it now
I will do it now?
Even if I lose the battle
I won't look back
There is no reason to continue
There is no reason to give up
There is no reason to live
There is no reason to die
Pain is my flag
I dyed it with blood
I made my eternal martyr
A weapon to live by