Taven - Phony Lyrics

I never knew that being alone
Could ever feel this lonely
I should really pick up the phone
But then I'd feel like a phony
Even if I'd done nothing wrong
I'd have to live with the old me
Even if I found where I belong
I'd still feel like a phony
Oh my god
I see the mess I made
I know I made a grave mistake
It's why I lay in bed awake
It happens almost everyday
Don't ask, you know I'm not okay
I flipped over the picture frame
My mind's stuck in an endless maze
I'll do my best to cast away the pain
I never knew that being alone
Could ever feel this lonely
I should really pick up the phone
But then I'd feel like a phony
Even if I'd done nothing wrong
I'd have to live with the old me
Even if I found where I belong
I'd still feel like a phony
I've been stuck inside my head so long
Writing my music but the notes are all wrong
Wanna be a real boy but my nose is too long
From all of the lines that I put in my songs
So many lies and it really don't sit
I wish I could be kickin' incredibly dope shit
But I'm so sick of workin' all night
Plus the nine to five
I gotta stay on my grind
'Cause I'm building this shit quick like I'm Amish
If I could only open my eyes for a moment
Then I would probably just take it all in (Take it all in)
I would probably just take it all in
Bitch I'm all in
I never knew that being alone
Could ever cut this deep
I should really pick up the phone
'Cause the silence makes me weep
Even if I said what's on my mind
Would it help me find relief?
Even if I leave the past behind
I'd still wrestle with all this grief