MONTHLY Video (MV)

I woke up this morning, lost in motion, losing focus
(Got me overthinking everything)
Rents due, bills late, way too much on my f*cking plate
Please don't phase me
(I only ask for one thing)
Cause it's not what I'm used to it don't feel right
They say that it's worth it but I feel like they lied
Month to month steady feel like I'm dying
Release this pressure I feel with time
It's not like the early 90s when shit was fine
(And you can't deny the way I'm feeling inside)
Oh why why why why why

When life is falling apart
(It's not what I'm used to)
Where do I start
(It's not something I choose)
Falling apart
But at least I try
(Won't let it get to my mind)
When life is falling apart
(It's not what I'm used to)
Where do I start
(It's not something I choose)
Falling apart
But at least I try
(Won't let it get to my mind)

$5 dollars in my name I ain't ate a damn thang
Don't know what I'm thinking don't know what to believe it
Don't know what I'm feeling don't know about dreaming anymore
Too young to be stressing too young to be depressed and
Learning all these lessons counting all these blessings
Call up all my friends but they can't relate anymore
Is it just me?
Often feel so incomplete steady searchin' for my needs

When life is falling apart
(It's not what I'm used to)
Where do I start
(It's not something I choose)
Falling apart
But at least I try
(Won't let it get to my mind)
When life is falling apart
(It's not what I'm used to)
Where do I start
(It's not something I choose)
Falling apart
But at least I try
(Won't let it get to my mind)
Falling apart
(It's not what I'm used to)
Falling apart
(It's not something I choose)
Falling apart
(But at least I try)