Take it in Blood - Fade away Lyrics

Consumed by pain and disdain resisting in vain
A sadist in my head i wish to see you dead
Not a day goes by that i dont feel really torn
Between anger and love between caring and scorn
I never know how to rest grief pilling up in my chest
Filled with a constant hate expecting nothing for my fate
Caught in the void in a disarray
A paranoid in my own misery
Persistent wish to fade away am i right or wrong?
It can be the last day like in the Adam song
Don't feel sorry when i'll be gone
The outline of my dead body will be drawn
A f*cking endless war inside my tortured mind
Many closed doors with my demons behind
You don't know me don't know what you might find
I'm losing my sanity there's no way that i'm fine
My entire life with clenched fists
I put your names on my list
A rope squeezing your neck
As a reality check
Will burn the flames of the final punishment
Hatred for the human race people should die
My heart is getting dry it's their turn to cry
I pray so much for its demise
The ones i despise will be stabbed in the eyes