Take it in Blood - 20 bars of love Lyrics

Am i guilty for what i think how i feel
It's gnawing at me maybe i am mentally ill
Each day i carry my cross with the fear of failure
Would it be a big loss if i pulled the trigger?
A huge nonsense only the strong survive
Empty and depressed the weak is still alive
I stand alone staggering on a winding path
Will i bleed to death ? laughing in my last bath
You know life is a rigged game with an only way out
Win or lose slowly we rot that's what is all about
Me myself and i my voices in my head
How long will you mourn me when i'm finally dead
Stunned and dismayed witness of my slow demise
Powerless soul in distress tears on my clown disguise
Hello mom and dad i stay here for you
Smiley and sad this is what i go through
I GRIT MY TEETH MY BODY IS TENSE
Questioning myself and my own existence
There's nothing rational too much emotional
Drift into nothingness i'm now unsociable