You see this life, this life ain't mine
You can have it and let me die
Every drug I take is like I'm kissing suicide
I see the stars the lights the moon it shines
The sky ignites inside my eyes
I'm seeing death and she's Devine
I can't forget I f*cking try
I f*cking take this stupid shit
And start to lose my f*cking grip
These f*ckers say it's medicine
I used to call it happiness
But I can't seem to stop and live
Without inhaling all my pain
I sit in darkness and start to wait
For sacred patterns and demonic saints
The truth is hard Im feeling great
I live depressed my blunts are laced
I wear this mask to hide my face
You live this life like it's a race
And then complain for the time you waste
Why you think I drown myself with every f*cking shit I take
My past is haunting i can't forget
I can't accept the effect it left
Lost respect for myself it's less
I f*cking see my fuxking self
I wish I died and lived in hell
The things I did dont treat me well
I'm losing weight and my brain cells
Come and shoot me come and help
I hear my son and break the spell