Sunshine Klaus - Permission Denied Lyrics

Been thinking 'bout a lot of bad things yet again,
What could've helped me become a much better man
Instead of the spineless, useless piece of shit that I am
A shadow of a shadow in the back of your minds
An idea you had, but it already died
There was fight in the dog, but the dog lost the fight
Wanted permission to move on, permission denied

I am not me
I am not myself
I am not me
Will I ever be myself

The words might be scrambled, but I hope the message is clear
Despite all of my best efforts I do have to fear
That what I have in me is a lil' difficult to express
The past, the present, all that is and all that once was
Converge in my head, it's a chaotic mess
To you, I'm a shadow of a shadow, but you're not to me
You're clear as day, I can see you in front of me
I can almost feel you
Like the idea that I had that never manifested
Because I never had what it took to manifest it
There was no fight in me, I fought and was too weak
And I detest it
I can never move on because I detest it

A shadow of a shadow in the back of your minds
A shadow of a shadow in the back of your minds

I am not me
I am not myself
I am not me
Will I ever be myself

I am not myself, no
Permission denied