Trauma Queen Video (MV)

Keep it surreptitious while I
Cross the t's and dot i's
Oh, can you tell the hell been to
I don't know why I even bother pushing through
As if there's something in the value
Objectively about you
To take the pain away
Paint away with rose lenses over the same canvas with no frame

I had never felt this way
I don't know what to think
I know I may be nothing
I still feel everything

Tried to make excuses
Tried to take abuse
Tried to hang a noose, it never goes away
It boils, freezes, toils, cycles through my veins
Perspective
Offered your subjective
Discrediting defense to every word I'd say
A cry into the void yielded only uncertainty

I had never felt this way
I don't know what to think
I know I may be nothing
I still feel everything

My eyes observe obscene creation of a ticking time-bomb tragedy
Reflecting results of a naive misguided forced masterpiece
Unfolding unbecoming of everything that was worked so hard to achieve
And thus achieving nothing
I felt the floor fall out beneath my feet
Where you can find me
Lower than my heart could sink
Still falling

Put up a fight
Fight to survive
What's one more night
The rest of your life
Follow the light
Ever so slight
There is no try
Just do or die