Sunny Shizuken - Regret(official Audio) Lyrics

I still remember
I'd fight with my mom
Cuz I didn't want to go to school
Bunch of abusers
Always had me mourn
Oh I let them play me for a fool
My first love ever
Girl who never cared
She treated me like I'm just a tool
Got my heart shattered
Everyday I feared
I always had to go by their rules
I hated every second of it
I hated more that I didn't fight back
These memories still comes and haunts me
Shouldn't have gave my heart just like that...

I regret all the things that I didn't do
I regret all the things that I have done
So I'm shouting it out all tonight to
Get it off my chest to do what I can
I regret all the things that I didn't do
I regret all the things that I have done
So I'm shouting it out all tonight to
Accept it, cuz it makes me who I am

I regret alot of things
I don't know where should I start
My mind's degraded by mood swings
Played with blades said its an art
I broke my girl's heart with words I can never take back
It tore me apart I swore to her I will never treat bad
Looking at the mirror always ask myself "can't you see that?"
Ain't it clearer this inferior person is the one who gets me mad
Facts I was procrastinating wasting my time on social medias
Hating myself taking the depressing thoughts to its prime really yeah
I didn't tell my parents about my mental issues early and
Now they don't understand, saying its misuse of phone I got my phobias
All these years and I'm still a failure still a scorn
Still got that tears full of eyes weak behaviour on
It's the same deal you get just my body has grown
Sometimes for real I feel regret that I was even born
But I know for a fact that act of suicide is not the correct option to own
Cuz even though it's fate, everyone cries when their loved ones are gone
So I'm gonna live even though I'm a bad lover and son
I guess I have to live to pay for all the sins that I've done
I just wanna be able to do something for my girl and my mom
Make them proud be able to say "relax now its my turn"
That they can count on me from now on
But I regret cuz it's just been nothing but my imagination

I regret all the things that I didn't do
I regret all the things that I have done
So I'm shouting it out all tonight to
Get it off my chest to do what I can
I regret all the things that I didn't do
I regret all the things that I have done
So I'm shouting it out all tonight to
Accept it, cuz it makes me who I am