Stoeter - Lost (Prod. Jmartinbeats) Lyrics

So when my dad I ran to the city that he died in
Orlando gave birth to me and I'm finally feelin' alive and
It's kinda like we resurrected and our souls combined with
Like Nail and Piccolo did and I'm still feeling your guidance
But when you died I lost so many pieces of myself
And It seems to me that nobody hears my screams for help
March 26th I lost my best friend my father and myself
And even though I've been resurrected I still feel I never dealt
With the death of you, with the death of me
I understand that this destiny
You get clean just to rest in peace
And that'll never make sense to me
So I sip my drank, drank in pain
As the liquor flows through my veins
And lick my lips and take one more shot and hope to see you again

Lets drank, drank away the pain
Drank away to drank away to drank away the pain
Lets drank, drank away the pain
Drank away to drank away to drank away the pain
Cause I got people all around
People askin' me how
This liquor keep going down
But I'm still on that crown
I got people all around
People askin' me how
This liquor keep going down
But I'm still on that crown

I still remember that time when you called and needed cash
I wanted to say no cause I knew it was for crack
Thought I could change your mind and hopefully instead
Do anything and become father and son again
When you pulled up and knocked on the door I cried and hid in the bathroom
Cause I didn't know who was on the other side, if it was you or the crack you
And honestly I thought you would rob me for more money if you had to
I didn't answer initially I was hoping that I didn't have to
And even though I had a couple hundred I only handed you a twenty
So we stood in the driveway crying our eyes out and hugging
After that I never saw you for a couple months or something
You ran off to rehab in a different city and left me alone all struggling

Lets drank, drank away the pain
Drank away to drank away to drank away the pain
Lets drank, drank away the pain
Drank away to drank away to drank away the pain
Cause I got people all around
People askin' me how
This liquor keep going down
But I'm still on that crown
I got people all around
People askin' me how
This liquor keep going down
But I'm still on that crown

Like a dying cat you ran away so I wouldn't see you die
And truthfully and honestly that helped me deep inside
For once in life I could finally focus on myself
After two divorces your drug addiction I really needed help
With each and every relapse I slowly lost my faith
Thought you'd never get clean thought I'd never see the day
No matter how much I spoke to God, no matter how much I prayed
No miracle ever happened I was only left in pain
And even though you were sleeping on a park bench
You were forever Clark Kent, my heart wrenched in darkness
To see you struggle and harness, to a drug addiction regardless
You're my one and only my super hero that I miss deep in my heart and

Lets drank, drank away the pain
Drank away to drank away to drank away the pain
Lets drank, drank away the pain
Drank away to drank away to drank away the pain
Cause I got people all around
People askin' me how
This liquor keep going down
But I'm still on that crown
I got people all around
People askin' me how
This liquor keep going down
But I'm still on that crown