Starry Eyes - Relapse Lyrics

I've done it again, lost my mind and let my heart send - it's love to you
In my head it's all over, oh God it's such a sickening sober
Been months since I've seen you, but I saw you yesterday and now I've seen your new life
And oh man, I don't know what to say except that I've thought it over and
Want to know, is this really where you want to go?
Guess I'll just relapse
Give my heart and collapse
They all see me and clap
No I know that in my heart of hearts that, heart of hearts that
Heart of hearts that they just don't give a crap
The first thoughts are of joy
36 months ; when I was a boy
Quite night in the back of a car, darlin' look how young we are
At 12 I decided that I wanted to be a star
Thought I would rock and go really far but
You knew that that wasn't in your life
Soon split through like a knife, like a knife
Now it's that night again
I'll sleep tonight again
We have that fight again
But I'll leave all night again
I cry on the wheel goin' home
Last thought was my telephone
She wanted me to call and make it right
It all had just died, oh it all had just died