I gave myself to two not one
The first left me breathless, all undone
She haunted my dreams singing lullabies
Ever turning aside, never meeting my eyes
On the same bed to which all these nightmares came
She left her Kleenex rose pedals lay
And I wept, not for her, but my foolishness
You're not still in love with me, I trust
No, I lied to both of us
As I pulled off her boots, that mystic smile
Those eyes full of lust burrowed deep into mine
Into the me she'd forgotten so fast
The me she'd forget once the moment past
And I wept, not for myself, but her foolishness
The second was taking what I didn't deserve
A drunken surrender to a timeless urge
A birthday party, a short black dress
Our synchronized dive to a foam mattress
July, sweat, and salmon sheets on the floor
The debris washing up on our moral shore
And I wept, not for the pain, but my innocence
That night on the grass hidden in the pines
When I wouldn't meet your eyes, you knew I couldn't make you mine
I was numb to your touch, I no longer burned
So you left me to dream of the first's return
You stole away in the early hours
Our love may have been weak, but at least it was ours
And I wept, not for your pain, but your innocence
Where are the wonders I once dreamed of
Was I foolish to dream of a perfect love
Where is my misplaced worry ring
What was that love song we used to sing
Where was the line and when was it crossed
How was the ancient icon lost
The one of the naked woman and man
Before they demanded a master plan
Before they were so worried how to be perfect lovers
Back when they both still knew one another
Let us weep, not for the blame, but our forgetfulness