Squiggly Lines - standstill Lyrics

Caught in a sunk cost fallacy
In a soulless factory
In a salt-less dead sea
In a friendless enemy
In an endless wintry
Relationship i never meant it to be

Stuck in a standstill looking back
To the times i couldn't act
Time to grow up and i slacked
Time to show up and i missed
Moments left hanging and dismissed
But i insist i dont do this shit on purpose

Accuse me of acting distant and sad
That's not fair, i'm the same with dad
Next you tell me how you want me to be
I say ill try but no guarantee

Trapped in a certain way to live
Trained to take more than i give
Made to stare off dismissive
Wish i were more proactive
Not to be so defensive
But i think i got used to going through life passive

Compared to when i was a little boy
I'm not so much fun since i've outgrown all my toys
And we don't talk as much as we used to do
I don't like to say it, our connections are so few