Stop feeling sorry for yourself my dear. You can't honestly tell me that you're treated unfair. You're feeling insecure, and miserable. I know the score, because I've heard it all before.
You've got to stand up for yourself. Don't let your peers discountenance discourage you. Your emotions are your own, so don't let yourself lose control of them. Your perseverance is easily found, but rarely kept. You're struggling everyday by resisting becoming the undead. Don't let another moment orbit around your weariness of tomorrow.