Spoken Worth - O.D. Lyrics

Late nights draw dimmer, and my mind gets weaker every time the lamp stand flickers
We are all cities on hilltops we can't be hidden
Substances are a crazy thing - both addicting and a deterrent
It's the thoughts that are deadly
And fighting against yourself is like swimming against the current

Isolation is more common when friends become upset
Paranoia is more prevalent when loved ones become suspects
I'm sorry mom, but my time is fleeting
Someone save my soul, because my spirit is sinking
Each and every week I dream that I can keep breathing
But every thought I have has me one step closer to O.D.ing

I'm scared of freedom
I'm scared to change
I'm scared of God
I took the blame
My heart is heavy
My soul is sad
I used to think that I was all I had

I would call, and silence was the one who answered
Sadness is like a cancer, but it's silent so it's never treated
I'm sorry that anger was the one who spoke to you
I'm sorry that depression was the one who wrote to you
Please forgive me

Please pray for me
Please talk to me
Please ask me how I'm doing, because I'm not okay
I need someone to be who I don't want because I don't want who I really need
O.D stands for only down, because I'm down but never out

So don't worry mom, I'll be back
I know there's love but I need affirmation
I'll be okay, just know it's complicated

Tell who you love that you love them regardless if they believe you
As long as you believe yourself
If your scared of O.D.ing just know that your not scared all by yourself
We're all down together in the same basement searching for the same key just to escape it
We've got each other, even if we're all twisted
We all have thoughts of death, and we're all demented
We are all different, but your story is our story
So tell the ones you love that you love them before it's over