Spire Shards - Flooded Lyrics

I don't remember the first time we met
Young and gullible
In search for I
You might have revealed a part of me
I'm not sure I like how we become
When I'm with you i just disappear
I let you control and don't want to come back
Cause i never know how it will end up
Always looking for the unexpected

Now that I'm older I can be scared
Of losing control and wasting my time
Always so much thing to do
And you're not helping in any way

Guilty pleasure to see you again
Full of regrets as soon as im alone again
We might be the same but we do things in a different way
I can be to cautious and you're all too sudden
Sometime balance is key

Do I even know you
I can't remember
I've heard so much
Between pride and disgust
What you've become
A simple need