Speeks - Looking Back Lyrics

Looking back
It's so mad
Lost sight of my goal
Conviction heavy on my soul
Looking back
It's so mad
If I could lose this gift
Would've sold it in a blink
Looking back
It's so mad
So mad
So mad
Looking back
Grace sustaining my faith
Went my own way but he brought me back

As a Christian 17 years in
I've seen mad things
Challenging, battling sin
Scars of the past
Mistakes that I made weigh heavy on my heart
I'm damaged, but I'm managing
Grace makes a way
Sustains when joy fades and pains all that replays
Carried by Elohim
Steady pace in the race
Trials every mile, purify my faith
Learning through suffering
Not tryna sound holy, if you know me
You know I'm far from phoney
Whole situations had me hoping in him only
Can't be too cosy now he's coached me
Watch my heart more closely
Showed me how to live spirit mould me
Show me what gospel living is
My time's limited
I wanna run well in this race never giving in
Grace gave me faith and sustains through rainy days
To stay living it

Looking back
It's so mad
Lost sight of my goal
Conviction heavy on my soul
Looking back
It's so mad
If I could lose this gift
Would've sold it in a blink
Looking back
It's so mad (So mad)
So mad (So mad)
So mad (So mad)
Looking back
Grace sustaining my faith
Went my own way but he brought me back

Walking contradiction at times in my life
Worldly Christian
Mixing dark and the light
Truthfully it shouldn't be
Spirit convicting me
Living religiously?
Only in my sight
Funny what we justify
Customise Christianity in our vanity 'cos we love the lie
Truth is that's useless and fruitless
He's not clueless to truthless excuses
Still we try
In vain, to take his domain
In our lives shape and make his word say
Whatever we like
If we're his we gotta repent and submit
We're so quick to forget
That he bought our life
Made mud his home
So his glory could be shown
Coulda stayed on his throne
But he paid our price
So how can I not bow in awe?
Face meeting the floor, before my saviour and lord
It's only right

Looking back
It's so mad
Lost sight of my goal
Conviction heavy on my soul
Looking back
It's so mad
If I could lose this gift
Would've sold it in a blink
Looking back
It's so mad (So mad)
So mad (So mad)
So mad (So mad)
Looking back
Grace sustaining my faith
Went my own way but he brought me back

This ain't a phase
'Been following the way for some seasons
Took a knee had to pray for a cleans lens
Now I'm seeing clear, I know I'll persevere
Until this scene ends
This ain't a phase
'Been following the way for some seasons
Took a knee had to pray for a cleans lens
Now I'm seeing clear, I know I'll persevere
Until this scene ends

Looking back
Looking back
Looking back
Lost site of my goal
Conviction heavy on my soul
Looking back