Swan and Phoenix Video (MV)

Last year left my heart stunned
This year lost some loved ones
Tryna find out where I come from
Tryna cope with the bad things I've done
When I'm broken and lost in the solemn
Would you judge if you knew I had fallen
When the wings held around me can't reach
Would you give me the strength that I can't see
I ask that you listen when I speak
Bite my tongue so my words can reflect all the pain from this pen
All the time that I spent tryna be so perfect
So not worth it
Trust when I say that I want it my soul will not plummet
R-Rise from ashes, know I come from it
Hit my speak, then fell to the summit
In terms of a swan song, so far from it
Looking for a dream, walking on a tightrope
Never what it seems, looking through a different scope
Too much room to breathe
So everywhere I go is crucial
This fire in my lungs burning apathy
If you knew of every thought I had would you still care for me
Or would you start to pivot from me
Or does it really matter to me
What I wish I said still scares me
But you can't hear me
Wish I had said things clearly
But you know how much I fear me
Story of my life can't fix this
No matter how much I cope
And maybe we just shouldn't mix this
No matter how much I hope
But the rage that I feel is intense
And this cage that I'm in is so dense
If only I jumped that fence
And been a new person since
Five years with a heart on fire
In the last we lost desire
Burned too bright turned ashes
I hope somewhere we lasted
Swan dive deep in the depths
I ain't seen the boy
Down in the ground, he been tweaking, he can't make a noise
Give a couple years, let him heal, we 'gon see that boy
Sometimes you gotta suffocate to find the joy
I can't lie, it's been hard, it's been difficult
Been through some disasters, life got faster when I saw you lose your jolt
And all the ashes of the memories faded into broken dreams
This fog is getting deeper
Time is valuable but lately it's been feeling cheaper
When every week I feel my optimism growing weaker
Tryna be my brother's keeper, a love seeker
But I just wanna
I just wanna see her
Mourning over a future that now I know I'll never have
Mornings with her, that now I know I'll never have
How do you cope with losing all you feel you ever had?
But like a phoenix man I'll find a way, I'll fly away
I don't like to be depressed but I got time today
I gotta get it off my chest I gotta find a way
But in the meantime I'll just fly away