The Soulless Architect - From Youth to Now (3:45) Lyrics

I'm so obsessed with the past like it defines me
It's as if everything before me binds me to history
Each sound of the clock is a place in time that's haunting
And I can't help but hear what the voices have to say
It's difficult to turn away when to commit that sin's to turn away for good and grow
I'd venture into the unknown and leave history alone

See, everything that's made me who I am is a product of every mistake I placed in my away
A consequence of the choices I made - lost friends; lost hope; lost family
A broken home was left to be mended, but it was left to rot, like a life in chains unattended
At the end, a stupid boy afraid to grow let his chest burn in vain
So, he chose to tease veins with blades, followed by lettered scars on his broken chest

I just want to re-experience the shaping of youth
If I knew then what I know now, I would change every single thing
I don't care if the past shaped who I am, for I hate who I've become
There's a lack of complacence in my mistakes
I want to change everything

I see INFINITY like God
Was this his viewpoint of humanity?
Perhaps, he too saw regrets, so he left us to rot in the midst of our insanity

I just want to re-experience the shaping of youth
If I knew then what I know now, I would change every single thing
I don't care if the past shaped who I am, for I hate who I've become
I want to change everything I see between my youth unto now

It's fifteen minutes before the clock strikes four
And my eyes are loosely stitched...by webbing
Spun in seconds of obscenity
I see fragments of history that could never be wiped clean

I'm counting all the blinds - each hides memories
I see space between each one - a vacuum of millisecond history
I twist the rod; as if I could modify the vacant face, but when the blinds reopen, my eyes still
Stare back with disgrace

I just want to re-experience the shaping of youth
If I knew then what I know now, I would change every single thing
I don't care if the past shaped who I am, for I hate who I've become
I want to change everything I see between my youth unto now