What's the reason that you live for
Whatchu doing with your life account?
Imagine being given 86 thousand 400 dollars in your bank account
Doesn't matter if you spent it all today
But at the end it all vanishes and goes away
Then the next day being given back the same amount
Sorry that I compared time to money
Cause I know you can't buy time
But that's how much you got in a day
Well that's the type of thoughts I got inside my head
And I know I told you I'll work on it a thousand times, yea yea But we both that know I never went and did it
Didn't think this was it knowing that this time around I got motivation on rotation
You kept telling me that I didn't show you this side of my dreams, tried to show you but I really couldn't
I got people round me tryna use use my name so they can get some fame
Some things in my life they don't feel the same
Starring in the mirror I can't help but laugh
I don't like what I see tryna find the real me
Fear took control of my mind will I ever be free
Have it stuck in side my head
If it kills me I got something I wanna say before I'm dead
Sometimes I wonder if I could live a happy life
Start to change the way that I feel inside
Leave the car if you don't wanna ride
Coming for you so go and hide
Take your heart and feel the pride
Plugged your ears I'm flying in the sky
Don't tell me that you feel the vibe
I don't need your lies
You'll never know if you don't ever try
I just need some time to gain some sanity
Figuring out who I want to be
Pull my eyes out for some clarity
Taking shots like I'm at the three
Got these people taking jabs at me
I don't need no one false
I wonder if I could ever be somebody
I wonder if I could ever have some sanity
I wonder what it's like to play with devil
Sometimes I just think, sometimes I just wonder
Sometimes I just
Now I'm here to figure out what life means
Living in a world of fear for most of my teens
Here's a glimpse of my mind hope you understand
I turn away when someone comes to lend a hand
Looking out into a crowd but I still feel alone
I should take a moment to embrace it I suppose
I know I didn't give you everything you wanted, but I know its all I got
Don't say you don't believe in me until I prove you wrong
Then once I start going you just come and tag along
Anger grew a limb on my body and I cut it off to watch it bleed
Fear is still inside my body messing with me so I don't succeed
Lemme tell you what I mean when we get back on it on the record