Self Doubt Video (MV)

I just got all this self doubt
Voices in my head getting too loud
I just got all this self doubt
No where to go but I'm still going

I've been going at this since June 17
Losing my mind ever since the day I saw the fiend
He told me to take his hand and life will be okay
If I knew where he was leading me I would've turned away
Ever since I was a little kid
I would always be the one planning life dreaming this
Now I know what struggle means
Life isn't the way everyone makes it seem
Tell me how I'm suppose to be what you want
When I don't even know what I want
Isn't that funny to you
Got me out here feeling lost
But you're so perfect tell me what'd you do
Name the price I'll pay the cost
Look at how I am now
On the ground with a frown
Staring up at god
Asking him why am I like this
Am I suppose to be the strong one and go handle this
I'm not worthy of his love maybe that's why he turned away
So I just sit and pray wanna be okay
Then I say

I just got all this self doubt
Voices in my head getting too loud
I just got all this self doubt
No where to go but I'm still going

I just got all this self doubt
Voices in my head getting too loud
I just got all this self doubt
No where to go but I'm still going

I don't know who I'm suppose to be or who I am
But don't get me wrong when I say I do the best I can
All the self doubt I put inside my head
Got me mentally exhausted so I wanna stay in bed
But you and I both know that I can't
My girl told me to get it together
To you it might seem like she's done with my self doubting
In reality she's just picking up the pieces to help me get better
She tells me that she doesn't want me to be anyone else
But I know being me isn't good enough so I hate myself
I don't think I'm good enough even when she tells me I am
Sometimes I wish I could be someone different maybe a better man
Having these thoughts got me feeling like I'm a pessimist
I should prolly go and take my problems back to my therapist
Never really wanna know where this road will lead me
I'll just stick with the plan with the gift that god gave me
I wonder if this is the right thing to do
Or maybe I'm disappointing you

It's like I'm falling out
But I'm calling out
To see if any body out there hears me
To see if any body out there might feel the same way as me
No one really knows how I'm ever really feeling
Got so many things running through my mind that I'm over dealing
Finding my self drowning in a pool of lies
Would anyone care if I died
Maybe when I'm older I'll start to understand life
As I'm getting older I've been learning to let things go
Cause maybe one day the grudges that I hold will eat me alive and feed off my soul
Sometime I feel like I wanna go and disappear
It's like I've reach that point where I've lost to fear
If there ever will be a day where I just feel okay
All my words are trash but maybe I'm just self doubting
I gotta chase this dream and put some food on my plate
At this rate, I'm shooting for the stars being great
"The sky is the limit"
Who ever told you that wants you finished
I'm going past that but the biggest problem with me is that
I got this self doubt

I just got all this self doubt
Voices in my head getting too loud
I just got all this self doubt
No where to go but I'm still going I just got all this self doubt
Voices in my head getting too loud
I just got all this self doubt
No where to go but I'm still going