Problems 2 Video (MV)

Dear anxiety, to the cold sweats and the night mares that I can't ever take back
If you're just like me then I'm sorry that you ever had to go through that
What is it that I really hide
What is it that makes me cry
Feeling like I can't deny
Got my mind going crazy feeling like I wanna die
Sometimes I don't even wanna be alive
My demons run deep inside
Tryna take over my life one day at a time
I wish that someone could help me and say that everything's gunna be alright
Walk by my side in this battle that I fight

Cause all the lyrics that I write are real
In room full of people and I still feel alone
Running in circles on a hamster wheel
I'm an introvert but I'm in a different zone
Tryna figure out what I should feel
Choosing the wrong path but I still roam
All of my scars hoping one day they would heal
Behind closed doors I sit there drowning in my own thoughts
Wonder if all the things that were running in my mind want me to take shots
Behind closed doors I cry with the blade that sits by my side
But you see the smile that I have not the uncut version of life that I try to hide
Behind closed doors I'm so broken
Behind closed doors I'm still hurting
Behind closed doors am I worth it

How do you feel about me now
Cause I know I'd rather feel like a person
You say I'm just their friend or I'm just that guy
When I tried to be nice you wouldn't even say hi
But instead I'm treated like I'm just some other dude
That's old news when I talk to you you're so rude
What did I ever do to be objected by you
Behind closed doors I've been losing track of time
Behind closed doors I've been fighting my own mind
Sometimes I start to question with the things I write are they making a difference
The moment I started writing is when start to dive into my past tense
But that's what got me here so do I go back turn the clock and make amends

You got your demons and I try to be fine
I tell you I'll love you forever as long as you are mine
How selfish is it when you show me all your love and support
And all I leave you with is questions of doubt and how much this love is worth
I know our story has been rocky and it's been sticky since the beginning
But I'm telling you that you make me feel safe and everytime that I'm with you I feel like I'm living
I can tell
You think I took your trust and I used it
I can only tell you my side of the story through my music
I never wanted to hurt you it's like I took your love and abused it
Became the more that I feel the more I'm vulnerable
The more that I show the easier it is to leave
But when my world comes crashing down
Would you want to stay around
I can't bare to lose you now
If only you knew what you mean to me
Without you I can barely breathe
Maybe our love was meant to be
I'm glad I have you in my life
Praying you won't leave so stay a while
Cause you're the reason that I smile