Someone Called Sarah - Guilty Pleasure Lyrics

I know I'm not supposed to
But hear me out this one time
What if I compartmentalize it
To keep alive in just my mind
Just a tiny lie I tell myself
To make the nights not seem so long
It's more like a lullaby, really
How could that be so wrong
I know I'm not supposed to
See Heaven in your eyes
But the way you look right through me
How can I not romanticize
I might be stupid for indulging
I should have more self-control
But trying not to hear angels sing when you are near
You know, it really takes a toll
I know I'm not supposed to
But I love you
So I find reasons to hate you
And your stupid, ugly, rotten face
It's so stunning it's a disgrace
I can't erase
The way you laugh
The way you smile
The way I want to hold you
And pretend for just a while
That it's not so strange
When you say my name
My brain lights up in panic
And it makes me go insane
That I can't feel this way
I'm not supposed to feel this way
I know I'm not supposed to
Get all giddy when we touch
But controlling electricity
Might be asking too much
Can I call it guilty pleasure
If it leaves me crushed on the ground
I never knew before that I would always crave more
When you're not around
I know I'm not supposed to
But I love you
So I find reasons to hate you
And your dreadful personality
It's so charming it's a fatality
I can't believe
The way you laugh
The way you smile
The way I want to kiss you
And pretend for just a while
That it's not so strange
When you say my name
My brain lights up in panic
And it makes me go insane
That I can't feel this way
I'm not supposed to feel
Like I have lost all self-control
When you walk into the room
And I would love to hang out forever
But even that would end too soon
And you can bet that I know
This means nothing without consent
But you make me lose
All of my common sense
It's not like I want to be
Controlled by phantom chemistry
It's like a disease
That festers inside of me
And I just want to be free from
The way you laugh
The way you smile
The way I want to hold your hand for a while
And I know it's strange
When I say your name
The pain shows in my voice
And it makes me go insane
That I can't feel this way
I'm not supposed to feel this way