Soft & Sweet - A Reason to Stay Lyrics

I was bitter and broken, I cleaned out your bedroom
It tore me apart just to say that I missed you
A photograph
Of a lifetime cut in half
I'd hide her dresses and makeup so her dad wouldn't find it
She'd come over some nights, escape from her closet
A beautiful girl with a bloody nose
And her funeral changed me, I knocked out her father
Someone called the cops for attempted manslaughter
But he didn't press
Paranoid of his own arrest

And there's no retribution now
No silver-lining
Not one I've found

I was drunk, in denial, when I tried to call her
And realized just then someone else had her number
He said "Hello?"
Tried to speak, but my body froze
Taking pills just to cope, it became an addiction
I found myself trapped in a constant affliction
Don't know what's right
Or what helps me sleep at night
And the bills piled up, so they turned off my power
I sat in the dark, pressing pages to flowers
Like you once did
Carnations and daffodils

And there's no retribution now
No silver-lining
Not one I've found

And there's no need to stick around
I've made my bed here, guess I'll lay back down

A phantom smell and a dangerous crutch
A reminder that all this won't be enough
You took your life, you were gone too soon
I think about leaving so I'll see you

A phantom smell and a dangerous crutch
A bottle of pills, that won't cost so much
I fell asleep and then in my dreams
You lowered my right hand and said to me:

"For each phantom smell, or each memory
Just know that I'm there, it's a part of me
Please don't meet me here, I didn't want to leave
I know it feels wrong, but babe, be happy"