Cursed Video (MV)

They say fake it til you make it
I don't think I'll even f*ckin make it
Through the night I'm shakin
Through the day contemplating
Ways to make it end
It's a nightmare Wes Craven
I think God must be hatin
I feel forsaken
Feel like I'm in hell
And I kick it in the hill like Heather Mason
I can't handle all the demons I been facin
But I can roll up this loud and then face it
I don't wanna
Wait longer I'm not patient
I'm so sorry I didn't live up to expectations
Suicidal thoughts in my brain invaded
It feel like I been cursed from creation
If I
Say I love you
Hope you already know
Even
If I
Take the leap with my eyes closed
I been
Running on love
In a life devoid of hope
I been
At the end
Many times so damn close
I don't
Have dreams
I just wanna decompose
I don't
Wanna hangout
I wanna hang
From a rope
I can
Barely walk outside
I find it
So hard to cope
Screaming
On the inside
Outside I'm all alone