On one hand I see something
I've been taught I need
But I've learned that the wolf that
Lives is the one I feed
I have everything I've ever wanted
But once I have it I wish
I wasn't chained to it
So my first reaction is to set it on fire
Have I been confused is there like
A balance in my perspective
Can I even move forward without
Feeling so left out
I never thought I'd be the one to do this
Is there a way to hold the
Keys but not have to drive
Or not hurt so much and
Still choose to be alive
'Cause I wanted to be the villain
But now that I'm here I
Just want to feel anything
I've learned that everyone makes mistakes
And now I want to make something else
It wasn't until it felt like
I'd fallen on the floor
Or I realized someone could only love
Me with true unconditional love
No framework, no preconceived mold
No hidden motive
'Cause I'm hard to love and
I bring my own fall
But searching for that love is like
Trying to hold running water
It might be there at the
Moment but it always slips
Now that everyone's gone I've learned that
I helped create that poison
When you let an audience tell you
You can do no wrong
The first human reaction is
To emotionally rob them
I let people who don't care
About me fulfill my needs
I let a psycho form and then I
Push myself to let that psycho repeat
You can't change what you don't acknowledge
You can't change those you don't understand
And I can't change all that
Damage that I've dealt
I wanna look myself in the eyes
Strip away the layer of music and try and say
I don't care about the bullshit
I just want to share something new
Finish each chapter
Even if I don't stick the landing
I'm not afraid of failure
I'm not afraid of you
And I can tell you that I'm amazing
But I'd rather just tell you the truth
My old habit's die hard
They fester and thrive on my insides
And the roller coaster I've built
Has become quite the ride
What was supposed to be contentment has
Changed with the passage of time
Because even when I write some words about
How I need to be less selfish
This is still all about me