Smooth OE - Painz of a Lost Man Lyrics

I'm broken in my mind been this way since child
Who can I trust when blood don't F*ck with me
Sit an smile in my face an tell they miss me
Why am I still feeling all this fake energy

Going thru emotions like the waves of the ocean
Or the pain of paper as a poet jot wit the pen
Sins of a man that rebuttal an repent
Tryna make a wrong right by bumping ya head

But we live an we learn and learn how to live
Born to a queen from a incompetent male
That never thought / let alone show us anything
As we strive to survive but wonder why we alive

If we die in the end what's the reason we alive
Cause not everybody get get to be child
It's Craz an a shamed as we running thru the maze
Sipping Liq pop pills trying to escape

These the pains of a lost man
This music keep me rolling
Holding all this smoke in
This Kush got me choking
Tryna live the best life
That I can
Only God can judge me
For my sins

These the pains of a lost man
This music keep me rolling
Holding all this smoke in
This Kush got me choking
Tryna live the best life
That I can
Only God can judge me
For my sins

We Run to facebook an IG tweeting about why we stressing
Instead of looking at what's depressing
Turn around look at what's your blessing
One foot after the other like Ms. Tubman

I been more of a man then my father ever was
Full custody of my son since I was 19
It turned me a grown man from a adolescents
Thank to my Miz she's truly a blessing

ShyMar and Nahzar
4 years I've been gone
Thru distance an depression
I left yall both dad less
I apologize to my kids for everything I then did
I never meant to hurt yall but I did
I should of already knew the pain it would cause
I truly miss yall And I learned my lesson