Sōmaphore - Falling in Winter Lyrics

There's a sadness that sits
Like the snow that has fallen
It's too cold for the sun
With its slanted rays to melt away

And the sadness has come
Like a weight from the knowledge
That you won't let me say
I'm sorry, forgive me, I never wanted to hurt you
But I know that I did

My intentions were good
Like the love that you gave me
And I couldn't return
The fact of our birth had determined our heartache

I would have said something
A long time ago
If had ever known
That I could have lost my desire to entreat you
With soft intimations of passionate caring
And wintry words

I tried to be honest whenever we spoke
Of where I thought we would be
Fifteen years later
Or even next week
It made little difference

It's like my truths were all changed
That's small consolation
For the one who lost something
That won't be replaced

But I give you permission
To squeeze every last drop
From the time that remains
If you need to then hurt me
But you won't convince me to stay

Could it be that I never
Saw those things I remember?

I'll leave without shaking
Your tears will almost persuade me
To turn around and continue the story
My pen will turn it
Into another sad love song
For someone else to sing