Mom I Understand Video (MV)

Doin everything you said that I shouldn't
Lying to you when I said that I wouldn't
Waste yo time and yo energy
Becoming your enemy, callin you out your name
I don't know what got into me but still you stay
In my corner and regardless what you said to me
Right or wrong you just wanted whats best for me so you demand
Most of all you deserve my respect
My apology I hope you accept
Hey mom I understand

The most regretful that I've ever felt
I swear life is really somethin else
Tryna be somethin you proud of but note to self
You really can't be shit without ya health
Hey mom I understand
All you want for me is to be a man
My whole life you been makin plans
But all I've really done it seems is shut'm down
And now you got some mixed emotions when I'm not around
Again I understand
I know I did it how i did it can't forget it
And I'm sorry but you gave me life and I'm just tryna live it
And you and God been by my side I'm blessed from the beginning
And I swear that I'm not tryna hurt you when I'm out here sinnin
I just dream of winnin but I'm losing tryna figure it out
Since I was 12 you wanted me out the house
The older that I get the more shit
The more you push then I resent but this is my attempt
I'm tryna make it right

I should be dead or in jail
Crashed 3 cars being SeDale
All the money we don spent is fuccin crazy
Liquor got me hazy and I'm sorry I believed I could fly
D, U and the I
Cant believe I made it through it
And its stupid cuz it took a friend to get me not to do it
But God was lookin out again and here I am
Besides some moving violations I 'm still in his hands
Hey mom I understand

What I'm doin isnt what you want pursued
And how you feel and your emotions too'm I know I seem clueless
But I been given talent I believe in tryna use it
But too immature and stupid not to see what I'd be losing
Your respect
Out here tryna get a check
Breakin yo pockets while you break yo neck
Tryna get your son prepared for the shit we've arrived too
Sometimes I swear I wish I could die too
Remember I was little and I used to hit myself when I was mad
Throwing violent temper tantrums and I know that made you sad
Now I'm grown and all I do is make you livid
And I know it's gon take a while for me to be forgivin, like a lifetime
Prioritize and put you before myself
Like you did for me and put a couple things on the shelf
But I'll keep'm dusted off I swear I got plan
And you just wanna see a better man
Hey mom I understand